zilch posted by imani , Friday, October 3, 2008 at 2:53 PM, in Labels: freefall

nothing seems to suffice right now.

everything is just so crazy. everything is suffocating.

i wrap my mind on thoughts and things that i really cannot do anything about.

i no longer feel like i can stop the downward spiral.

i no longer feel like i am able to do the things that i want to do.

or maybe it is just because i am looking at one direction.

that i do not value the detour.

or that i am rushing to understand the truth of what is happening to me.

perhaps.

perhaps i have changed.

perhaps it wasn't necessarily the situation that has maimed me.

perhaps i was too weak to fight it and just allowed for things to be.