eros the bittersweet

endless

your kisses weave and
thread colors into one delicate
and faithful white, telling
the story of an unspoken, ancient

language, my soul falls, helpless,
abandoned, abated, arrested
beyond repair, i crave the natural
element of your desire ~

its scent, its darkness, its malleability,
its openness, its sanctity
my heart now knows that

some infinites are tangible,
that some are profound ~
your eyes, your skin, your love.

years

the vacant hours stare
into your gaze filled
with the ardor and languor
of fire, mercilessly excising

tears and laughters from
what once was an empty
hand, which your lips now
burden with a definite,

exact, amber light, the haunting
color of your eyes and what
i would imagine the rest

of your unarmored body
tastes like, and as seconds
spin into hours, days become years.

top one hundred

last year was filled with surprises. initially, i thought to myself that if i would be asked to describe how the last year have been i would only be able to mention 2 words (in proper order) - low and high.

then i thought of just how blessed i truly am and realized i never have to limit my world and encase everything on those two things. there is just so much to be thankful for, so many things that kept me grateful and full of faith and hope.

i hope we all take the time to look at the past so we can map our future and relish the present as we should.

i have seen this list on facebook twice, i think, and have been meaning to reply or re-post it on all my other friends' pages, but work got in the way of fun (hahaha!) so i am only doing it now.

rumor has it that this list was from bbc's big read campaign back in april 2003, where they began the search for 100 of the best-loved novels. apparently, it has nothing to do with bbc, as it's part of the guardian list of 100 best books. and apparently so, the guys at bbc believe that most people only have read about 6 of the 100 books. i beg to differ. which is why i am posting the roster and marking those that i have had the pleasure of devouring in idleness:

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien - tolkien is perpetual, that i tell you
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte - yes, i have
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee - read this in grade school
6 The Bible - i wouldn't dare say i have read everything. passages yes, as there are things that must be taken in small doses
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens - read this in high school
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott - yes, i have
12 Tess of the D’Urbervilles - Thomas Hardy
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18 The Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger - the book of my life
19 The Time Traveller’s Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
25 The Hitch Hiker’s Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll - yes, i have
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis - yes, i have
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen - yes i have
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis - this is part of the chronicles of narnia
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli’s Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden - i have, thanks to my sister. such a heart wrenching story
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne - yes i have...which kid has not, anyway?
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown - yes i have
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez - the first garcia-marquez book i have read
44 A Prayer for Owen Meany - John Irving
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid’s Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
51 Life of Pi - Yann Martel
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen - yes, i have
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zifon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens - yes i have
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon - a joy to read
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez - i love this book!
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov - yes, i have
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt - yes, i have
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy - read this in high school
68 Bridget Jones’s Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight’s Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker - yes, i have
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Inferno - Dante - i happen to like this ('we have no hope and yet we live in longing')
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens - a favorite when i was a child
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte’s Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom - yes, i have
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle - yes, i have
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery - yes, i have
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factoy - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo

that's it for me so far. it's just odd not to see isabel allende, milan kundera, neil gaiman, friedrich nietzche, kahlil gibran or paulo coelho on the list. or jessica zafra for that matter. by the way, twisted 9 is already out. go get a copy if you're in dire need of humor and wisdom for the new year. cheers!
 

anais nin

and the day came when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.

t.s. eliot

i should have been a pair of ragged claws.

frida kahlo

i hope the exit is joyful and i hope never to return.