i did not know how to begin. i was seriously considering flipping through the pages of my dictionary (a graduation present i was given when i was in grade school) and pointing at a word that might make it a little easier for me to start today's post.
then i remembered the term 'gestalt,' which, in the simplest way would mean 'patterns.'
the last few months, or year, depends on when you started reading felt exactly just like that. it is breathing and living with patterns. the rise and fall of thoughts and curiosities. the upward and downward motion of feelings and insanities.
don't get me wrong. there is nothing i would love more than to keep this blog looking hectic, but that's precisely it! my life has been inexplicably hectic. you know how i am. i have this penchant for reading 2-3 books at the same time. i would usually stop and pick up a different material when i find the other one becoming tasteless and bleak.
and if i am not reading, i am probably having coffee, which includes conversations that stretch from 'here' to 'there,' which of course i would not just give up. if not for reading, coffee and conversations i would be...asleep. weird habits and lifestyle.
right now, i find myself sitting alone, with a miserable view of my shelf and my books collecting dust. despite the horror and pain of seeing what i am seeing right now, there is no experience quite like having a room for yourself, surrounded by the most beautiful stories and poems ever written, trying to argue with your demons and constantly challenge your limits.
i am imani.
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