eros the bittersweet

day 1, week 1

it was 23 july 2008. at approximately 1:46 in the morning, nosh carefully placed my first nicotine patch on my left arm.

yes, it is true. your eyes are not deceiving you. you read it right.

my brief and often misconstrued love affair with smoking has ended.

last 22 july 2008, nosh bought me a pack of nicotinell...it contains 7 nicotine patches and each patch must be worn for an entire day and will release about 14 mg of nicotine throughout the 24-hour period.

i just remembered - the last ciggy that i lit was 4 pm of the same day...so yeah...i have not been smoking for almost 2 days. can you believe that?!

the thing is - it's a 12-week program. so yeah...i am rehabilitating myself and i am at the very onset - and the most critical phase, i think. i still would have to find out of course, if i will be tempted...knowing that most of the people i work with smoke their 15-minute breaks away, two to three times a day, everyday.

going back to the patch...you have to hold it in place for about 20 seconds, maybe to ensure that it won't fall off or something. then a funny feeling occurs about a minute after...it feels like a small rash is developing underneath the patch, and of course you cannot scratch it too much, otherwise, the thousand that my wife spent will count to nothing.

it is actually nosh' birthday gift for me...she said it's the best thing she could offer at the moment and i agree with her. i am on my way to being healed, brothers and sisters!

so...why am i quitting?

FOR THE GREATER GOOD.

2 comments:

Niel said...

wow! good for you. i wish someone i know would try to quit as well. *sigh*

quixotic said...

at last! thank God Nosh is there. is she also quitting or it's just you? ;-) hehehe!

 

anais nin

and the day came when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.

t.s. eliot

i should have been a pair of ragged claws.

frida kahlo

i hope the exit is joyful and i hope never to return.